im done!

dear blog,

im done with this boy. i've already reached the limit. he keeps pushing my patience to the maximum.

i couldn't hold my patience anymore. i let my anger conquers my judgement. i let him to overcome my patience.

he's such a bad boy. a samseng i must say. name-calling is his forte. he does bad things to his friends. he pushes others and steals their stuff.

i have no idea what to do. I have advise him so many times before but he keeps repeating the the same things. he is still disturbing others. he's not listening to my lessons and instructions. to make it worst, he doesn't understand English at all.

i don't want to send him to GB or PK but today, i let the anger do the judgement. as I said before, I've reached my limit. yet today, I brought him to the office. i explained everything to the PK. and i didn't know what happen to him.

as I walked to the staffroom, I felt guilty. I knew that the action that I took just now was supposed to be the last resort. i was supposed to send him to the class teacher first. i felt so sad, thinking that he might be canned by the PK. i talked to the class teacher, apologized to him as I noticed that my action could tarnished his reputation as the class teacher. right at that moment I knew I should be more symphaty towards the boy. i should consult my cooperating teacher and the class teacher first. i should not have done that!

but the damage has been done. and i should be accountable for any consequences that might arise from my action just now.

i know i have destroyed my reputation among the teachers, and the boy must hate me for a long time.

now, i feel regret....

and it's not a good feeling....


xoxo,
not a good teacher